A week Post Op.

Hello there how are you?

I’m reading a book on Gothic literature. Did you know the word “Gothicity’? exists?

I am on the couch typing this to you, the above photo was from Monday when i put makeup on for about five minutes when I was bored then immediately took it off, foundation face on the pillow makes me want to scream.

but I’m on the couch now, make up free drinking coffee from my favourite mug, with fresh comfy clothes on. hair is washed and skin has been moisturised, i feel great. ready to play some guitar.

The greatest mug, i got it from TK Maxx.

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So, i bought a chaise lounge from facebook market place and a lamp for dead cheap, just been delivered to the cottage. They are both absolutely gorgeous! Theres a corner in my living room thats been empty that I’d like to turn into a reading nook. A cosy corner. The chaise and lamp are going to go here, need a small dark wooden bookcase next and will add a few trinkets to personalise. Theres a cute side table for the lamp that Ro got from the car boot.

This is my first proper home. it gives me such a thrill to do it up..you all know I’ve always loved charity shops, car boots, flea markets, but i’ve never had a beautiful home to do up before. I was talking to my councillor this week about the guilt I feel for living somewhere so gorgeous, even though overall our costs are way less than in London, but I feel like it’s going to be taken away from me or something, or that i don’t deserve it. I’m working on that.

did you know i used to have a flea market stall with my mum on Salford Precinct? maybe thats where this love of all things second hand came from. I was dellboy on that market, my mum taught me haggling techniques and I’d get such a buzz when we’d sell something.

before my op the other week i went to a car boot and got there at 9am sharp, ready to hunt. i’ve been there before and i know the importance of punctuality, people take car boots very seriously..a crowd of zombies staggering aggressively over a hill comes to mind. baby i’m one them. so the air was cold and fresh and the sun was out and coffee was a quid. Romeo goes and looks at musical gear and i go looking for spooky treasures and household items of the victorian variety.

I couldn’t believe it though, i was elbow deep in a bargain bin when i heard a voice say ‘Ren Harvieu?’ I got bloody recognised! At the carboot! they said that they have both my albums and that it was bizarre to see me here, i said it was bizarre to be recognised! I was well chuffed.

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my mum told me i should be careful that i don’t become a hoarder, but theres no chance of that. I’m not sentimental. if I have no use for something, I chuck it, and as I said before, I detest mess or clutter, I grew up in it, it made me develop OCD tendencies that I’ve had to work on. For example as a kid I’d do ‘checks’ I’d pull the covers on and off my bed 30 times before I got in, any sign post I’d see I’d have to read it backwards otherwise I’d get anxiety, I had repetitive thought patterns that didn’t make any sense and seemed to fulfil no greater purpose than to do my head RIGHT in, and intrusive thoughts, ah yes intrusive thoughts. intrusive thoughts so visceral I’d feel them physically. I know now a big part of my OCD was attributed to the chaos of home. so now, in the pink palace, I just want it to be beautiful, clean and calm. Romeo has stepped into my domestic diva shoes really quite well, I’m like his cleaning sensei and he my dutiful apprentice.

anyway, I asked Ro just now if he could arrange a reading nook mock up (interesting cluster of words?) of the chaise lounge and lamp, and doesn’t it look beautiful already eek?! I’m in love..!!!

It’s just been a lovely lovely week. drawing with ink, playing flute, watching tele, writing, dreamin’ and schemin’, cuddles on the couch with romeo and ralph, I’m getting everything in order for single release this month.

I’m also starting a youtube channel where I’ll be posting myself singing from the cottage by the fire. By next week I should have uploaded my first video which I’ll share. I made a little poster for it with a drawing I did the other day, it needs more work its just a template for now but what do you think? I think the font needs to be easier to read (that bottom text says ‘do you want to become a renette?’ but, it’s a start. Im excited about the youtube channel, I want to reach more people with my music this year, thats my goal. I’ve set myself a target of 1000 subscribers in the next 9 months. Wish me luck!

Lots of Love,

Ren

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